i am superman ;
4/30/2006 10:21:00 PM

i am superman ;
4/29/2006 12:17:00 AM

i am superman ;
4/29/2006 12:07:00 AM

I seem to have a problem when it comes to friendships. Apparently, my friendships don't last as long as i want them to. Isn't that like very saddening? I meet different ppl along the way... some of which are great while others are plainly horrible by nature.

Over the years i've made many great friends. most of which i hope that i will stay just as close to them as time turns the pages of our lives. But reality just loves to bite my ass and violently pops my fantasy bubble. They don't last long.

Frankly, over the years, i have observed a pattern and i though i am reluctant to accept the way things... i feel i have to acknowledge it before i go on hurting myself further! People come and go. unfortunately I guess thats how the world works. Sad.

This makes ponder who are my true friends.
i raise questions like ...

" Is it worthwhile to commit to this friendship even it seems soo fruitful?"
" Should i even make you my friend when one day you're gonna go away?"
" Who are my true friends?how can i distinguish them?"

after taking some time alone while my what-seems-like my other half was snoozing away on the phone, i've realised something. that i put alot of heart into a friendship just quietly hoping all the effort that i've put into it would bear fruits. honestly, out of 10, only 2 return more than half the effort i put into the friendship. quite sad really.And with that, i have yet to decide on the path i wish to embark on. Till then, i'll just quietly wait at this fork of my life.

The pathways ahead of me.

to the left : to only put half the effort and wait till the other party returns half of the effort that i have put in then continuously add more effort.

to the right : to carry out what i've always been doing. Go all out in the friendship and hope for the best.

quite tricky yar?

The Left.. isn't really me. i'm Mr Nice guy. I can't help giving all that i've got. i like to be on the limit. Risky.. yes! i know but i'll feel good cos i've done my part in the friendship. But the left path seems more like an intelligent one.


Mmm.. think i'll ask god.

i am superman ;
4/27/2006 09:39:00 PM

I feel like shit sey. Well not really that shitty... but ya just sick and tired. Also i'm kinda sad that i have neglected some ppl in my life who play a big role in my life. haiz.

Fana

one of my best friends...

Daphne

~whhish i is a better fwen.~

i am superman ;
4/25/2006 11:21:00 PM

ya know on these boring saturdays,witnessing a competition really helps! To spice things up,pinkie accompanied me there! how nice of her. =) Though we missed TK band's performance, it was still worth coming to meet my teachers.

Miss Goo haven't changed abit! Miss Nah... erm.. she's STILL a Miss and Mr Kor... he's forever with that funny accent. I miss Mrs Quek. She wasn't there just now cos she's on MC but i guess i'll come by soon or who knows! i MIGHT be a staff there at TK one day!

haha! imagine this.. the kids greeting me... Good morning Mr Faris!
That would be pretty awesome. I just hope i don't turn into a pedo. i Don' t know why but i just have this attraction towards TKGS girls!!

it's like... argh! i dont know. they're just PRETTY! well.. not ALL of them..maybe just a few.. but still! PRETTY! haha!

Ya know...if i had a daughter..i'd want her to be in TKGS...and if i had a son..i'd want him to be in TKSS. Firstly... it'll be easy for me to send them to school.. and Secondly... there are soo many schools around where they can meet hunks and chicks! haaha! Daddy's got it all planned! haaha! =P

Speaking of daddys... what kinda a daddy would i become? or would i wanna be?

Honestly...i can see myself like my dad.. playing games with my son and daughter. and fooling around ALOT. Hahaha! i can't be serious too much! it just isn't me!! i can't imagine myself being serious all the time cos i like to smile and laugh! i think my children would too! Well whatever it is...i wanna be a dad who they'd be able to interact with. And of course a great one! =)

But ya... i wanna have good kids.. which means i need to find a good wife! still searching for one but not active though. i just know that day will come.

hmmm i just had a thought..

i just imagined something ridiculous. ahha! what if the ppl who i've met were to be my wife...

ok lets start...

Marsiah
i'll prolly have kids who are smart and matured. marsiah would be a good mom cos she doesn't get angry alot and is rather rational.

5 out of 5 stars!

mmm...

Syikynn
ok..this one..i know that She'll be a kick ass mum! i'll have good looking and pretty children and mmm...hmm..i ain't sure what to say. i guess thats all

Keep in View...

next up...

Rufihaza
Firstly... i'll DEFINITELY have very active children! i'm very active and so is she! VERY explosive! But ya know... she'll be a very loving mother and wife cos i know there's this very soft side of her that i crave for. i think i'll have pretty kids too..

mmm! Fiesty~!




And sadly...

this is all the time that we have...

I'm tired of rambling nonsense.

out.

i am superman ;
4/23/2006 02:11:00 AM

ya know on these boring saturdays,witnessing a competition really helps! To spice things up,pinkie accompanied me there! how nice of her. =) Though we missed TK band's performance, it was still worth coming to meet my teachers.

Miss Goo haven't changed abit! Miss Nah... erm.. she's STILL a Miss and Mr Kor... he's forever with that funny accent. I miss Mrs Quek. She wasn't there just now cos she's on MC but i guess i'll come by soon or who knows! i MIGHT be a staff there at TK one day!

haha! imagine this.. the kids greeting me... Good morning Mr Faris!
That would be pretty awesome. I just hope i don't turn into a pedo. i Don' t know why but i just have this attraction towards TKGS girls!!

it's like... argh! i dont know. they're just PRETTY! well.. not ALL of them..maybe just a few.. but still! PRETTY! haha!

Ya know...if i had a daughter..i'd want her to be in TKGS...and if i had a son..i'd want him to be in TKSS. Firstly... it'll be easy for me to send them to school.. and Secondly... there are soo many schools around where they can meet hunks and chicks! haaha! Daddy's got it all planned! haaha! =P

Speaking of daddys... what kinda a daddy would i become? or would i wanna be?

Honestly...i can see myself like my dad.. playing games with my son and daughter. and fooling around ALOT. Hahaha! i can't be serious too much! it just isn't me!! i can't imagine myself being serious all the time cos i like to smile and laugh! i think my children would too! Well whatever it is...i wanna be a dad who they'd be able to interact with. And of course a great one! =)

But ya... i wanna have good kids.. which means i need to find a good wife! still searching for one but not active though. i just know that day will come.

hmmm i just had a thought..

i just imagined something ridiculous. ahha! what if the ppl who i've met were to be my wife...

ok lets start...

Marsiah
i'll prolly have kids who are smart and matured. marsiah would be a good mom cos she doesn't get angry alot and is rather rational.

5 out of 5 stars!

mmm...

Syikynn
ok..this one..i know that She'll be a kick ass mum! i'll have good looking and pretty children and mmm...hmm..i ain't sure what to say. i guess thats all

Keep in View...

next up...

Rufihaza
Firstly... i'll DEFINITELY have very active children! i'm very active and so is she! VERY explosive! But ya know... she'll be a very loving mother and wife cos i know there's this very soft side of her that i crave for. i think i'll have pretty kids too..

mmm! Fiesty~!




And sadly...

this is all the time that we have...

I'm tired of rambling nonsense.

out.

i am superman ;
4/23/2006 01:38:00 AM

i am superman ;
4/17/2006 09:21:00 PM

Bad bad monday. i already lost my Ezlink card which has my funny lookin' face on it and now..i can't believe i'm down with the sniffles!

The things that made me frown

1. Munirah won't be coming to work for a week! sheesh! i mean i have no special feelings but the whole group of us misses her presence. It's soo easy to bully her.

2. i'm down with a terrible Flu.

3. Huda is not gonna be there at work too! She's gonna be temporarily transferred to another department. WHICH MEANS! i'm left with no one to disturb. Arfandy has Cammy. Cammy has Arfandy.

And to make matters worse... the ghosts of the past are haunting me again! Again... they said i'm FLIRTING ON A MASS SCALE! Everyone agreed to that. well..not really everyone. Just the whole group. But i suppose if estella were to be on the stage saying that
i bet EVERYONE would agree.After everyone made that comment... i just shut myself momentarily and had to put on a public smile. I tried my best to smile like i meant it. It was hard. really really hard. But i know i had to do it.

At that moment... i wish i could just disappear...

In the walls of my mind... questions and the most feared outcomes came to mind. I wish oh how i wish marsiah was still as close to me...but that was impossible though i'm awfully thankful that we are stil friends. upon indulging on that ephemeral thought... i reached out to her.

She has always provided me with sound advices whenever i needed them.

Well...i'm off to bed now. Take care all.

i am superman ;
4/17/2006 08:58:00 PM

i am superman ;
4/02/2006 02:26:00 AM

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