I quote, "life is like a box of chocolates" But to me... "Life...is like a box of pockets filled with pennies" Memories like pennies in a pocket, always there but sometimes forgotten. Only to stay deep in the abyss to collect dirt and scum until stumbled upon.

WEee~!! waay to go Faris! hahah! where in the word did you ever think up of that Rubbish sey. But what the heck...as long it makes you happy. =)

Life It's cruel and unfair, but we've got to endure the thorns of life to be a better person than who we are now. It's amazing how maturity is unleashed and slowly developed... with each deadly slash from life...new light and hope is shone into you.

I'm Getting waaaaaay too philosophical...so CUT IT Faris! ok ... now... i'm getting more courageous... *breathes in deep* Aaaaaahh~!!!! yeaaaah...thats the stuff! *gives a smug look and winks* YAAAARRGGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Faris...18 more days...

Lets rock...

LEts get it started...

Yeah... RIght HERE!! RIGHT NOW!!!

i am superman ;
12/30/2004 01:08:00 PM

D . I . T. C . H . E . D

i am superman ;
12/29/2004 01:20:00 AM

man i love this shoe...

i am superman ;
12/27/2004 12:16:00 AM

My latest work...and it sucks!

i am superman ;
12/27/2004 12:13:00 AM

Yep...i'm a narcisissy!!! All Fadh's fault! Nugget~!

i am superman ;
12/26/2004 10:22:00 PM

oH NO!! i'm Becoming a Narcisissy!!!

i am superman ;
12/26/2004 10:21:00 PM

PST journal 1

My first Lesson of PST started on the second week of school as i was transferred from French Classes to Problem Solving Techniques. Frech classes wasn't so bad but problem solving techniques is much better and more fun too!

When i first came into class, i was greeted by Mr Roland yeo and he introduced me to the class. After a brief but warm welcome, the learning begun,

The first thing that Mr Roland emphasized on is the word Creativity and what it meant! When he asked questions, somehow the class wasn't really responsive but i guess everyone was still pretty shy.

Well, after that friendly and warm welcome that Mr Roland gave me, it somehow gave me the courage to actually participate and answer his questions! So yes, i almost answered his questions together with my new friends like Rahman ,simon and marcus who sat around me! and it seems that our table was the only group that was answering questions! Haha!
It was really fun but most importantly,all of us are learning.

Soon, Mr Roland taught us to look at problems in a different manner to solve them and he delivered the learning issues in pictorial form and some of the picture were really really challenging to decipher that he showed us on transparency. I really have to admit, that this method of teaching is rather effective.

Well thats about all for the day and soon it was time to go home!!! the best part of the day!! but honestly, after that lesson, i was very much eager to attend his next lesson. But for now,i guess i have to wait for a week. In the mean time!! i want to go home and sleep!!! aahhh * Poof*

i am superman ;
12/24/2004 02:14:00 AM

Hey blog.. hmmm....the name blog. aah Heck... Doesn't really make a difference anyway. i'm really really...down. i miss RUfi Soooo much!but i can 't spend time with her! Haiz...i love her soo much... anyway...i don't know why but my blog entry seems messy nowadays. So i think i'll start organising things nicely. So lets first start off with school.

Actually...life's pretty great at school! i love it and i got a TP JAcket!!! WEEeee~!! but sadly...everyone else who represented school also has it too... BLEAURGH!!! Besides that...reallly...i think this sem is easy! i don't know why but i'm loving school because the things that im learning now are soo FUN!

But Funny..i'm not STUDYING!! I feel soo lazy!! but seriously...i guess..i think i'm indulging my feelings too much. Man..EVEN RUFI'S STUDYING!! and i'm nOT!!!! Well Faris...takmo cam gini k...must study and revise my work. I know you understand things...but you're really forgetful! So study! understanding is not good enough you dummmy!

Sigh~...i met belinda just now and we talked for quite a while...it was cool. i was waiting for Rufi cos i thought maybe she wont go for rock...but she did..and prolly she's gonna end up with Rizal again. *shakes head* haaaaizzz...i know she still loves Rizal and that somehow...no matter how much she says she doesn't want to be with him....she still wants to be with Him cos...for now... no one is good enough for her...not ever me...

Belinda's really cool.

Anyway... just now...after i talked to Belinda...i went to meet Rufi...and saw Fidz instead. And Rufi saw me with Fidz and she doesn't seem interested to talk to me... it's surely about me talking to Fidz. i wanted to talk to her...but...i decided that i should leave the scene. So...i walked slowly to the astroturf and watched some ppl playing hockey!!

Pretty Cool stuffs i observed just now!! i saw this girl...man...she's quite lethal sey! i say man...ppl shouldn't look down on girls at all! and i'm not kidding...she was NOT MARKED AT ALL!!! she was moving around and nobody took notice of her. So...alot of times...they gave her a thru ball and she scored!!! bodoh sey...
haah! and thats not all...

there was a small kid...the smallest there.. playing on the opposing team. As usual...just like the girl...HE was UNMARKED TOO!!! then to my surprise...when got the ball...he dribbled sooo skilfully through all the defenders and he scored!!

Seriously...those 2 incidents made my jaw drop. and amazingly...those 2 players are the ONLY scorers of the game!! Ahha!! my goodness....seriously...i was doubting them abit. oh c;mon lah...the girl...look soo harmless!!! and the small kid...is in primary School!!! How am i not to doubt that they would be able to score!!!???

Anyway...after the game...i found myself in the midst of Aidil and his friends...and man...i must admit..he must be a hottie sey. He's a handsome chap. when i went there...he was with his 2 friends...who are girls! yeah i felt odd...but yeah i just hung around with them to listen to their crap. And boy...it was a nice evening...

While they were talking...i was looking around just enjoying the peacefulness and i didn't realise that it was really really a nice place to relax...

Rufi...was on my mind as she has always been...i wanted to ask her to come there and spend time with me. But c'mon... the likes of her choosing me over Rock Climbing...seriously...it's miniscule.

But i guess it doesn't really matter...she's happy there with her friends... i just want her to be happy...even if....AARRGGGHHH!!!! I've got to be HUMAN man!!! I WANT TO BE WITH HER!!!!! i want to be the one making her really happy!!!!!!!! i wanna be her EVERYTHING!!!! * wails* =(

Haizzz....i need to sleep...but i can't... i miss her terribly... what more...i don't have her sweater...makes things even worse...and also...i can't call her at night...that makes things WORSER THAN WORST!

ku akan cuba sedaya upaya untukmu kasih..
ku tak akan hiraukan waktu...
kerana ku ingin bersama mu...
bersama mu sehingga akhir waktu...

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12/23/2004 02:43:00 AM

Hey there all...to whoever is reading my blog..ahha! ya know...i doubt that ppl are reading my blog...oh c'mon...it's a members only thing ya know....yeah something like that...ok lets get started...

hello there to all!! yes yes...i'm back...and guess what....SCHOOL started a week ago and it's pretty tough but damn Fun! I mean..i'm learning some Tranplace transformation SHIT!! It's WAHAHA! It's soo Fun! makes me feel so...professional! Khekhe! there are soo many numbers...and alphabets and you turn this and that...from the time related domain to a transplace domain denoted by S...then once done...you convert it back into the time domain again to get your final answer.

Cool stuffs those!Anyway...boy...i miss Rufi like crazy. I can never forget the day that we spent the whole entire day together!! Well almost..but seriously...if i had been given an opportunity...i'd like to put her to bed and watch her sleep the whole night!And IF lah...my parents allowed Rufi to stay over at my house...man...it would be... *2 thumbs up*... POWER!

Sigh...THink of the fun time we'll have...
Seriously...if she could stay over...we'd play XBOX and PS2 together...then when we're tired...prolly take a nap. Then prolly..i'd wake up first...then cook her something for dinner. then...the moment she wakes up...yes of course...give her a kiss( i can't resist it man when she's looking like that) then let her have her dinner outside at the backyard. We'll eat and talk over dinner... then prolly watch a movie at my place.

man i can just imagine us...snuggling up together with a blanket in the aircon-ed room at the back* Rufi knows where this place is*. Then...after the movie...i'll make her a cup of passionfruit tea/ hot chocolate.. and sit down on the swing to enjoy the breeze and serenity.

Prolly...after a while...she'll be falling asleep and yeah...i hope my mum lets her stay at my place for a night (hopefully forever) and well...yeah...soo...i'll carry her up to the back room and let her sleep there...
i'll tuck her into bed and watch her sleep. Man...it'd be soo cool if i actually fall asleep with her. Sighh...i tell you..it would be the best nights that i'll ever have! i don' t have to be afraid of waking up from a dream about her...cos when i wake up..she'll be just beside me. Aaah...i wish it would be a reality. It will be the best sleep that i'll EVER have.

What more that i can ever ask for but to see her beside me every morning i wake up?

Faris...snap out of it...she's with Rizal now. I tried calling her but she ignored my calls. I'm soo afraid...that my nightmare that i had a few days ago would come true.

My nightmare..hooboy..i shall not try to write it here. It's not a good idea..i'll end up crying and go hysterical. Rufi's not around.

I wonder what she's doing right now...i wonder if she's thinking about me ... siighh...i know how she feels and i'm just not courageous enough to take the necessary steps to make her feel secure. All i can do now is pray hard and hope she doesn't fall in love with Rizal again.

Kadang ku berfikir...

adakah rindu di hati mu seperti rindu yang ku rasakan?

ku tidak akan terlena tanpa mu di sisiku.

oh permaisuriku... mengertilah cintaku ini tulen dan hanya untukmu...

Untukmu kasihku... ku akan cuba meraih bintang di angkasa...

hanya untukmu saja...untukmu Rufi...

i am superman ;
12/20/2004 12:47:00 PM

So beautiful...i can wait to draw another pic of her.. *kisses screen* i love you...

i am superman ;
12/19/2004 03:24:00 AM

another pic of me and her... HEy wait a sec!! ain't that the same shirt that she wore today when she went out with me?! hahha! =)

i am superman ;
12/19/2004 03:22:00 AM

thats Rufi and me on the first day of school..man..i love her alot. check out my new hairdo

i am superman ;
12/19/2004 03:19:00 AM

This is For Jaja...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

There ya go Jaja...no need to go about finding it anymore.

i am superman ;
12/12/2004 02:10:00 AM

Losses... *shakes head* Ladies and gentlemen...i would like to pose a question...what is a great loss to you?

To me...a great loss is a loosen bond with someone that i truly love and cherish

My first week in school... seriously...it sucks... haha! i think by now...you can actually know what it's all about...but for those...who doesn't know the story...yes...its about Rufi...and YES! this blog is all about Rufi..

11th of december just passed...and she wrote..

" December. The end of the year. A new chapter, a new beginning? I don't know. Words written in pencil... your choice..to let it stay or be erased away."

Rufi my dear... This is our last 11th of the year... with each tick of the clock...my hearts aches more and more..seconds come like pins that strike my heart with each tick.

a new semester...a new beginning...

From what i remember you said,you were never there for me...dear... you were there...only that you never realised. a proof to my statement...look back on the 6th of December...you were there...to start my semester.. you were there...together with me...

i have nothing much to say...cos now, i'd rather let actions lead the way. my actions will be subtle...but meaningful... i promise you...

i beg you...see through me...
know what my heart is trying to show...


Boy... ya know sometimes...i thank god that i have a blog. It makes me feel soo much better. *wipes tears away* yep...feeling abit better... Man...i should recommend all loners to have a Blog...

Anyway...i need to start up a plant as my tutorial. HAha!! and i've chosen to have a petroleum plant!! and i'm gonna Call it EF!! (pronounce it as the letter F) then my slogan would be....

Can't sHell it UP??? THEN EF IT UP!!!!

Ahaha!! that'll be cool! anywya!! man! i love designing a plant! I wanna design a plant!! i just hope it doesn't blow up sey. Man...i can't believe i'm already into these kinda stuff...and to think..this is only Diploma level!! what more at Uni!! what would i learn?! THis is soo exciting...i really wanna know. i can't imagine hwat it's likie to actually know how basically everything works!!

i remember my first week of school in year one...after that week...i kinda look into things at the molecular level. I mean when i drink,i can imagine whats going on in the water that i drink!! that i'm not just drinking H2o but also H30(hydronium) !!

hooboy..it's 2am and i'm still up playing the computer. I'm supposed to be studying!!! but i'm not!! Zul's talking to Fadh...thinking about nat and here i am not asleep but look at fidz!! she's long gone...never gonna be waken up with anything else but the sound of the morning gong!

ooooo~!!rhyme-y... hahha! ok! i better get off the com now. Farewell and goodnight to all...to all whoever that reads this blog...

i am superman ;
12/12/2004 02:02:00 AM

Hello hello!!!! hahah i'm back! yes yes...long time never update yarr??? well many reasons why i havent been updating my blog.

Reasons...

1) There's nothing to update about.
2) nothing interesting to update.
3) i don't wanna update
4) i was on lazy mode
5) err...lets see...oh yeah... i was more interested in DRAWING!!! hahaha!!

Look!! i can draw!! Waahah!! so happy!! man to think that i once hated drawing and i failed art when i was in sec 1 and 2.i was a hardcore SCIENCE person back then.
Now...haha...oklah...learning deeper about the subject is killing me!! last time i used to top the level/ class sooooo easily!! close eyes also can do very well. Hahah!! man...those were the days...sigh sigh sigh~.
But yeah...they all belong in my book of memories...to be cherished and relived/recapped from time to time.

Anyway!! i'm at school now and i must say it's pretty peculiar blogging at school...oh yeah...school started and today is the first day of school. *shakes head* my goodness...i already have to attend tutorials and labs in the first week!!!!! and the subjects are soo damn boring!! Trust miss lena sim to educate a bunch of huu-haas... i mean...where's TIN LIN!?!?!?

Mr Tin Lin's the heart of chemical engineering and he's no where to be seen!!!! WHERE IS HE?!!?!? DID HE RETIRE!!?!?! NOOOO!! it can't be!!! TIN LIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNN!!!!! where are you?!?!?!?!!?

haiz...oh well...school's gotta go on! Hey at least there's Mark Tan... =) way hey! Cheers! that Mark Tan's one amazing guy...really...his lessons... Short Sharp and Simple.

Today...i walk around school with a new haircut and i realise that alot of ppl are looking at me!!! man...my haircut's really bad i think...but.. at least...i don't hear comments flying around about my head. So not bad really. Thank God i'm around matured ppl...well.. i hope they are... :/

Well... here's a lil update about my life... whatever that i've been going thru during the hols..

For starters...

mY lOve LiFe...
i just have one thing to say about it...it sucks.... Yes yes...Rufi's gone...she wants me to bugger off from her life cos she doesn't want to hurt me anymore. noble thing to do...but hurts like mad!

lesson to be acquired : Love hurts...
Realisation to be made : i need to upgrade myself.

WHY??
reason : (refer to story 1)

Story 1

Not too long ago from today...i met someone on IRC by chance. I was finding for my online buddy that i used to play trivia games with there at IRC. i wanted to ask her how she was and by gad!! she has a new son!!! hahah! her 3rd one already...my my...she's been busy eh! I've not talked to her for 2 years already and i met her online by chance while i was trying to download songs (hush!! dont tell the cops!!) Well yeah she approached me online and i started to talk to her. On that day..my com was experiancing major probs due to a virus and i had to log off...told her that i'll be coming in again to talk to her.

So yeah...the next day went to IRC and i clicked on the old nick that she used to use 2 years back!SKALI SALAH ORANG SEY!!! I say man!! i said lots of shit and after 10 mins of crapping on my own...THEN that girl tells me that i've got the wrong person. was talking to her about religion and astronomy!! and that girl found me intrigueing!!! and she started to talk to me!! hahah!! my goodness...she said she was interested in that area too... she's Rufi's age...but have gone thru much more shit than anyone i know.

She Changed and she's now...well...a good person...man...she's lucky..her current BF is some religious guy. well thats what she claims lah. She told me about her old probs and from there...suddenly...i felt how rufi felt.

It hit me hard...that...i wasn't paying much attention to Rufi. i was soo much into studying and doing well. i tried tagging her along but she didn't study much and I finally truely understand how she felt...

Although while we are studying together....it's not what she wants...it's not what we call it... Quality Time. =(
But then again... there wasn't much time for me to spend THAT kinda time with her...it's no wonder that she always runs back to Rizal. (to understand more..refer to Story 2 in next update)

To simplify things...let me put it into an equation...

(Specific Parts Of Me) + ( Time and attention that Rizal can afford to give) = One big Happy Rufi.
Well...i guess it's too late for me to realise that...Rufi doesn't want me anymore... =( so sad.

Well kids...here's a lesson... when it comes to Love... Mums and Dads knows best! So kids... when they tell you that you are too young to get a Gf/Bf... LISTEN TO THEM!!!!

[*NOTE: To understand better..refer to Story 3 in future updates]

Be smart...Like Jaja...haha!! SHe lets other ppl get hurt and she learns about Love from there...

JAJA' S Choice...it's the choice Smart Ppl make. Whaha!! *winks at jaja* But then again... the best way to learn is to experiment and go thru it yourself. Jaja...don't worry..you have me to tell you about love...and Lust too...* winks* WAHAHAHAHA!!! Cheeky me!

Ya know i have LOADS to say...but i shan't complicate things further... my entry is getting too complex..actually...the more i write the more merepek. Anyway...i need to go now! take care!!!!

i am superman ;
12/06/2004 06:16:00 PM