Wednesday, September 21, 2005
I fell asleep in my cubicle and i had a dream of naadira. It was such a sad dream. Since i just woke up, it's still fresh in my memory. in the dream...i was all recovered from my injury and i was able to skate...but in my dream i wasn't skating...i was riding a bike.
In my dream, i went back to the place where me and Naadira always skated... though in my dream the place was very different..instead of a longkang...there was a beautiful beach and near the beaches were hills.
I was just alone enjoying the breeze and polishing my bike. When i was polishing one of the mirrors... a girl in a black sweater overlapping a White Planet Hollywood T shirt and wearing jeans. The glance at my back and i could see her in my mirror. She walked passed and gave a smile. As she was walking past me...she slowed her steps.. and when i finally realise who she was. i just looked down at the asphalt with My heart beating fast...Finally after a while, i looked around to find her but there was no one with a black sweater on.
i repented not glancing back to say hello to her. So i got up, wiped the sweat off my forehead, took my long sword and slung it over my Shoulder. ( Cool eh? i got a sword..)
i rode my bicycle searching for her and finally after some time, i finally found her. SHe was sitting down on a Bench made up entirely of limestone. She looked just as marvellous as ever. She had her hair tied up in a ponytail and she took off her sweater and tied it around her waist. She was sitting down there trying to get something out of her black casing; i couldnt' make out what it was though but a few seconds later...she took out a violin to play! I was shocked!! i thought she played the piano! But ok ... she looked perfect with the violin.
i rode pass her pretending not to see her... trying my best not to stare at her. but i did...i just couldn't resist! She looks astounding!
I slowed down my bike so i could see her for a longer period.She practiced on her violin so scrupulously and i was amazed by her. Suddenly..she stopped. Immediately, i stepped on the gas and looked ahead pretending not to notice her. i was still looking at her thru my mirrors...she too was looking at me. She looked sad. I was sad.. i was afraid to go up to her.
unknowingly, i have drifted off the track and was now trudging on the white sands of the beach. I Hit a tree stump and i was thrown off the bike. I hurled thru the air like a trapeez artist just in a more ungraceful manner.
I hit the ground with an enourmous force and laid still.
Questions start to fill my mind...but it was those kinda questions that i shouldn't be asking in the situation i was in. Funny, i was asking questions like...
Will i ever see her again?
Does she Recognise me?
Have god answered my prayers?
I can't get up! How am i gonna look at her?!
The only things that was coming out of my mouth like a spell was just..
naadira..naadira..Naadira.
AFterwards... i just passed out only to open my eyes and realise that i'm on the hospital bed. Scenes pass by like the autumn wind, fast but subtle. Recuperation was fast and painless. I was able to hold my sword and peform a decent move in no time.
after a months, i was back to my rigorous training by the steep hills near Naad's house. Swishing my sword with pride and exellence. Cut the air with lightning speed. It was just great to be back here...my favourite place on dream-earth.
Everyone around me was having a nice time flying big kites that looked like butterflies.
As i was sheathing my sword, something caught my eye. Could it be? No... it can't be... things can't be as uncanny as this! law and behold, i stood up to see..only the most beautiful creation before my very eyes.. It was her..Naadira.
WE stood there, eyes locked together...hearts racing, my mind,a blank.
Neither could mutter a single word.
For that very moment, Time and everything else besides us stood still. The Fluttering of the leaves could not be heard, the laughters and smiles froze as if death smiled back at them.
Our gaze only to be broken by a baby's cry. Time kicked back in and she walked away while i looked down at my still unsheathed sword exposing it's deadly cutting edge with her mark still as distinct as the sun. Her mark... the holy letters imprinted; N a a d , on the edge of my sword will forever be the only portal to the sweet cherished memories we had.
i stared at the scars of the past on my hand. Its a reminder that i was given another chance to live for me to make the best out of it. While i was contemplating to make a decision, my thoughts were interrupted by the cries of the baby that grew evidently louder.
My eyes were greeted with a sight of a baby dangling on a branch of a tree at the top of hill. He was probably trying to get the kite out of the tree which was still stuck up there. There were only 2 ways to get up the hill round by the back where you could gently mount this hill... or the fastest way which was to scale the almost vertical face of the hill.
Suddenly i just realised that there was someone already scaling it!! oh god...i can't be.. it's Naadira!
Instinctively, i unsheathed my sword, ran and jumped a few feet into the air. At the peak of my jump, i struck the face of the hill deep with my sword. As gravity was acting on me,i held on to my sword tight and utilizing my body weight and gravity, bent the sword down temporarily and with a mighty pull of my arm...the sword sprung back upwards to send me hurling a couple feet in the air to catch up with naadira. She was almost 3/4 up the hill but as i could see.. she was struggling to get up there.Nobody had climbed that hill before because the rocks were too loose to climb as they were just clods of earth and stone! Even i was struggling!
i climbed up as quickly as i could trying my best to catch up with naad to talk her back to her senses. Just as i felt, she held on to a loose rock and lost her footing. She slid a few yards down and i caught her just in time so she wouldn't slide down anymore.
I looked into her tear-filled eyes. She was scared. I pulled her close to me and whispered to her that everything's gonna be alright. Also, i told her that we had to climb up cos we're nearly there. We need to save that boy overhanging above us cos the branch can't hold onto his weight for much longer.
Guess what? The branch broke..
The kid fell together with the tears that he had poured down below. The boy crashed into both of us with such force that it nearly threw us off the hill. Though it didn't throw us off...it took quite a blow on our stamina and our spirits. We were tired..especially naadira. I kept encouraging naad to go on. SHe did just that.
Just as we were nearly to the top. I slipped and slid down a couple of metres down. Naad was fast enough to actually hold on to the petrified boy but she was now running on fumes and the added weight just used up the very last ounce of her energy.
Naadira : Faris... i cant take it anymore! The boy's too heavy... grab him quick!
Faris : C'mon.. hang in there! just pass em to me! Slowly ok!!
Naadira: ok!
Faris : Thats it..Easy does it!
Naadira passes Faris the kid... but just as she passed the boy to Me...Naadira lost her grip and slipped down. she caught my leg and soon..we were in the worse possible situation.
Faris : Naad!! Hang on!!
At this moment, the boy was clinging around my neck and the only thing i held onto was a huge clod of earth. i was praying so hard that that clod of earth would not fall out... but slowly.. it was crumbling bit by bit.
Faris : Naad...
Naad: yes...i can see that and i can't hold on much longer... my arms..it hurts! It's getting numb Faris!
For that moment.. we just gazed into each other's eyes. Naad gave a slight nod.
Faris : No!! naad..don't you Dare let go naad! DON'T! Someone's bound to get to the top soon. Just hang in there! Please!!
Naadira : Faris..look at the boy! He's scared.. and he has a long way to go! One have got to compromise.
Faris : Naadira..there's got to be some other way!! Just hang in there please!
Naadira and Faris looked into each other's eyes..slowly tears start to fill in.
Faris : What a place to have a conversation eh?
Naadira : *smiles while trying to keep her tears from rolling*
Faris : don't let go...
Naadira : i don't have a choice... Faris. It was nice talking to you...
Faris : You too...
Naadira : Take care... Till we meet again.
Faris : naadira...
And She just let go just like that. Just like how time stopped when we gazed into each other's eyes each time... This time..time just slowed down. She fell down slowly inch by inch... and time went soo slowly that i could see her tears trickling down her cheeks. Slowly...she went further and further away and just before her last meter down...i shut my eyes and the tears that i have been holding back gushed down like rain.
Finally, someone got to the top and helped us up. i Ran all the way down from the back of the hill. And it took me quite a while get down. When i did, there she was, lying there motionless. I Knelt down by her side and cuddled her in my arms and cried.
She's gone now and our only conversation was our last...
