Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Suddenly it just hit me soo hard! and OUCH!! it kinda hurt! I feel stupid!! Really really stupid! aarrggh! The waste!!!! haiz...
Ladies and gentlemen....if anyone of you out there has a stamp that labels " i am stupid" ...really...lend it to me.
Ok probably none of you would know anything that i'm talking about right now. But yeah...it's about Rufi..and my hopes... really.. why am i soo stupid to believe that she might come back!? why am i ________? i'm wasting my bloody time!!! i've really got to learn this lesson really really well. gaarggh! i need to be more cruel towards ppl. after all that thinking...the money...the time...the sms...the.. the...BLAAAAAAHHH!!!
Forget it Faris. really. Anyway she could have just said to me straight but what the hell. And yeah...i should really really be smarter.
For now..i am focusing on somethings...and after what i just thought and realised.... i've got a whole lot to scrape off my mind. I have to restructure my plans...NOW...
bleh...i've got alot to think abt. And i realised that i'm really mostly on my own..kinda.
hmm...
Alone? i don't know.
come to think of it...are
both of us going thru the same thing? most likely...
Come now...let us come together as one.though our hearts are as hard as stone.Come now...lets go hand in handand venture out on this unknown land.Never fear my dear,no matter whether the answers are far or near...i will be here..to bring smiles and to wipe away your tears.i will...hold you tight when you're frightened.Carry you when you're tired.Lend a shoulder when you cry...and be your wings when you want to fly.
