Last friday, i went out alone to various places and i never knew that i was able to discover so many new things all in just a few hours! At the same time, i was able to experiance so many new and adorable observations of the world around me.

Firstly, i went out to Jurong and stayed there a lil while just hoping that i might be bumping into her. .. whether or not she was with some other guy or alone ;though personally i was sure she wasn't alone, either way, i'd know at least something be it bad or good.

overall, the discoveries that i encountered during that journey, was the highlight of my day. Like for instance, i discovered this particular shop that seriously be helpful in customizing my own stuffs and it's awesome! Other than that...i found this shop which sells my favourite stuffs and i found new clothes! Wee~!

And also..after window shopping, went to take the free bus shuttle. I just took the first bus that came and didn't care where it was heading too and just took it! And haha! it led me to Boon lay!! AND GoOdness gracious!!! there! i experianced the most astounding sight i've seen in a week!!

THere i was ... in an open field and as i lay there on the cool grass, i had an uninterrupted view of the heavens!! It was breath taking! aah! the wind...the coolness of the grass... the unbelievable serenity! it was a magnificent moment! Without a reason...i suddenly thought about her. And i am sure she would love it out here... i seriously wish she was there with me...aah! the happiness and relief that it would bring her is unimaginable! I seriously think...after the terrible week that she's had...i'm very sure if i could bring her there... her tension and fear would dissipate just at a snap of a finger.

i am superman ;
7/31/2005 11:37:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/30/2005 08:56:00 PM

She's as screwed as i thought. *looks at self* i'm quite screwed...

Your 2 Weeks Notice...

i am superman ;
7/29/2005 10:43:00 PM

come lets analyse a few things here in my family. Today i shall compare us siblings with each other and the exhibits at the stand for trial are..... My sis, Me and my younger brother.

I realise that i'm the only one that can't play a musical instrument..ok here's a list of what they can do and what i can't.

Sister
Capable of playing every instrument known to man.
Capable of singing.
Sporty
Smart (she WAS from TKGS ok..)
pretty
Fair.
passoinate..

basically, Sister = a great girl all the guys would want to have.

Brother

Capable of playing an instrument

Game freak

Goodlooking

Muscular

cool

basically, brother = what a gurl wishes to have but know it's near imposible to get.

ME..

...

err...

i cant sing...

i can't play a musical instrument

i can't dance.

i am not cool. i'm just me

i'm freakishly geeky.

i am not good looking.

Basically, Faris = someone you won't look at twice...i am a common man.

The Indifference.

i am superman ;
7/29/2005 02:26:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/29/2005 11:46:00 AM

First of all...i'd like to make a statement...Seriously...my mum has a personal grudge on my sister. poor sis..

Anyway next up, haiz...having Mc was ok...i woke up late everyday...but i'm still sleepy though..i don't know why but anyway yeah here i am still sleepy. I did my database homework and i feel that i've got loads to do.

I'm Just really really depressed! i'm not looking forward to anything...not even the weekends! I'm really really losing it. I really am.

What caused this? here are the probabilities.

come to think of it..i've got myself to blame. I jumped from a burning ship to another!

Started with

Marsiah...went back to her ex and i jumped to Nastassia....left me...jumped to liking khadijah...figured that i am not gonna make a move...so thought i would forget about it but yeah...stumbled upon rufi...due to highly complex situations..we can't and she doesn't want to be with me.. was left broken hearted.. the day after...met with Shaf...didn't want to fall in love with her...but eventually did...when i did that...she lied to me when i was leaning on her. Can't trust her and i guess i won't be trusting her for quite a while.


I want to feel loved!! i wanna feel loved from a friend!!! i want to feel secured!! i want someone that i can really really lean on!!!!!

Marsiah keeps telling me to stand on my own!! I'm down!! it's hard to stand up .... literally!!!

Argh!

i'm lost..i really am.. I've tried everything ppl could suggest to me cept changing myself. my heart is broken up into pieces so small that it pass thru the eye of a needle... pieces so small that the pieces would sparkle in the sunlight..but you will never get a chance to pick it up and adore it.

i need to sleep... there's a bleak life ahead of me to go through.

i will smile...

i am superman ;
7/28/2005 11:48:00 PM

It's been soo long since i blogged about anything. A real entry is hard to come by nowadays...Why don't i blog or why can't i blog about any? i'm sure you all think there's ALWAYS something to blog about in my melancholic life.

Well..actually...there are alot of things that i can talk about... but i've soo down that i can't even blog.

Now..
I'm hoping on something which is not even confirmed! I mean...there are it's challenges to overcome. WE hardly meet...at most only twice a week...usually once. how long will it last? i dont know but whatever it is... i need to change my mindset about how things are going along. No more huggies or kisses. Just let it be like what friends should be.

let it be...
come what may.
i will always smile
until death itself smiles back at me!

For now...

with every breath i take,
with every smile i make...
It's gonna hide whatever is true.
Not from me,but from you...

i am superman ;
7/27/2005 12:51:00 PM

I hate this weekend!!! *cries*

i am superman ;
7/24/2005 09:25:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/24/2005 12:18:00 AM

nude

i am superman ;
7/23/2005 11:01:00 PM

Freedom...just beautiful ain't it?

i am superman ;
7/23/2005 10:43:00 PM

Ku fikirkanmu dengan setiap degupan hatiku
Ku melihat wajahmu dengan setiap kelipan mataku..

Setiap langkah ku mengambil,
Berasa berat jika permaisuriku tidak di sebelahku
kakiku hanya ingin bergerak bersamamu dan kepadamu

suara manismu terngiang-ngiang di telingaku.
Pelukanmu masih ku teringin-inginkan..
dan senyuman mesramu tidak akan ku lupakan.

i am superman ;
7/23/2005 09:46:00 PM

i had a seriously bad day yesterday and also a bad day today. and since today and yesterday is a bad day, i'll call this weekend....

i am superman ;
7/23/2005 09:19:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/21/2005 04:16:00 PM

Authentic Beauty....may very well be one of the rarest earthly treausres today. It holds magnetism far beyond the loveliness of a properly painted face, and it possesses a charm that towers over the enchanting grace of a sweet personality. It is not ever tobe discovered in the pomp and polish of high society, nor in the silk and satin of those conformed to popular culture. Rather, it emerges only rarely in each generation, and that in the life of a young woman - a young woman who is deeply i love with the Prince of her soul...

Have you found that young woman?

i am superman ;
7/21/2005 03:52:00 PM

It's so hard to let go of her...
The hope that i've clung on to for years,
Seems so insignificant now

she doesn't want me...
Not today...
Not tomorrow...
i guess not ever...

i am superman ;
7/21/2005 03:31:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/20/2005 09:00:00 AM

Suddenly it just hit me soo hard! and OUCH!! it kinda hurt! I feel stupid!! Really really stupid! aarrggh! The waste!!!! haiz...
Ladies and gentlemen....if anyone of you out there has a stamp that labels " i am stupid" ...really...lend it to me.

Ok probably none of you would know anything that i'm talking about right now. But yeah...it's about Rufi..and my hopes... really.. why am i soo stupid to believe that she might come back!? why am i ________? i'm wasting my bloody time!!! i've really got to learn this lesson really really well. gaarggh! i need to be more cruel towards ppl. after all that thinking...the money...the time...the sms...the.. the...BLAAAAAAHHH!!!

Forget it Faris. really. Anyway she could have just said to me straight but what the hell. And yeah...i should really really be smarter.

For now..i am focusing on somethings...and after what i just thought and realised.... i've got a whole lot to scrape off my mind. I have to restructure my plans...NOW...
bleh...i've got alot to think abt. And i realised that i'm really mostly on my own..kinda.

hmm...

Alone? i don't know.

come to think of it...are both of us going thru the same thing? most likely...

Come now...
let us come together as one.
though our hearts are as hard as stone.

Come now...
lets go hand in hand
and venture out on this unknown land.

Never fear my dear,
no matter whether the answers are far or near...
i will be here..
to bring smiles and to wipe away your tears.

i will...

hold you tight when you're frightened.
Carry you when you're tired.
Lend a shoulder when you cry...
and be your wings when you want to fly.

i am superman ;
7/19/2005 12:09:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/19/2005 08:50:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/18/2005 12:56:00 PM

aaah...weekends! =)

i am superman ;
7/18/2005 08:50:00 AM

I am a product of public abuse... this sucks.

i am superman ;
7/16/2005 04:47:00 PM

remind myself NOT to look back in the near past. dammit...i can't believe it's really THAT painful! Yep, it's painful.

ya know...i sent Rufi something...hmmm...wonder if it EVER got to her. if it doesn't...haha! think shall stick to email. Hoowell...see how it goes.

Reminds me of something...ok it's not about the near past, it's about the far past!! hahah! it's about thsi friend by the name of Benyamin. He went to finland. Man...if oonly i could stay in contact with him.

he'd probably could get me some cool floorball sticks. Cheap ones too ! (^o^) haha!

Well..i've been stuck here on my chair since just now. Sleeping...and thinking and oh yeaaaah!!! i had a nice dream..and also a new idea!! hahah!! wee~!! my brain is sooo happenin'!!!

*looks at report*

hoooboy....i still have my GANTT chart to do...heck i have no idea on how to make one.

wish rufi was my group partner...she's so damn enthu..she can do that chart for me....hahaa! man i'm such a lazy bugger!!!!

Wish zul, shaz and fahmi was here...there's a multipurpose court here. If they were here...at least we can play floorball here...

i wish... i wish... i wish.... hmmmm *grinz* hehhe!!!!! what a thought... (^.^)

ok..ok...seriously...dammit! i got to finish my chart!!

God... please!!!! do the chart for me!!!!

*shuts eyes tight and rubs report*

please please please!!!!!!!!!

.....
...

*opens eyes*

crud...

i am superman ;
7/15/2005 03:48:00 PM

untukmu...

Tenangkan resahku,
saat langkahku terasa berat
Teduhkan jiwaku,
saat matahari bersinar terlalu pijar
Karena dirimu satu-satunya yang kuandalkan
saat diriku tak mampu berdiri di sini,
sendiri
Ceritakan sayang
hari-hari yang t'lah kau lalui
Katakanlah sayang
semua hal yang kau benci dari diriku
Cobalah.. cobalah tuk mengerti keadaan ini
aku rapuh
saat kau tinggalkan...


[Chorus]

Tunjukan...
padaku...
kau slalu mencintaiku
jadilah...
pelindung bagi sayapku
Aku berjanji aku berjanji
slalu menemani langkahmu
dalam setiap helai napasmu

Bangunkan tidurku
bila kau terjaga lebih dulu
Bergegaslah sayang
kita isi indahnya makna hari ini
Cobalah.. cobalah tuk mengerti keadaan ini
aku rapuh
saat kau tinggalkan...

[Chours 2x]
Tunjukan...
padaku...
kau slalu mencintaiku
jadilah...
pelindung bagi sayapku
Aku berjanji aku berjanji
slalu menemani langkahmu
dalam setiap helai napasmu

i am superman ;
7/14/2005 02:20:00 PM

aaaarrggghh!!!!!!!! i can't take it!! nooo!! m old flame!! rekindled!! nooo! please...not now God..i stopped it for good...please! i dont have time for my old flame though my love stil exists!!

Please god... refrain me from playing roller-hockey again please!

i am superman ;
7/14/2005 01:16:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/14/2005 10:35:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/12/2005 02:01:00 PM

Hoho!!! Goood morning everyone!!!! hahaha! let me start of by saying that MONDAY IS OVER!!!! Today is tuesday!!!! wee~!!! not only i have my pants on it's firmly in place...i'm having a relaxing day at work today. last but not least!! i'll be having floorball practice later!!! and to top it all off... it's a day closer to the weekends!! hahah!

haaa...yesterday, i had a superbaaaad day. Seriously!!

let me summarise...

1) my pants fell down while i was running for the bus.

2) i had 2Litres of Shit to centrifuge and i only have 4 bottles to use. So essentially, i had to centrifuge about 20 times!!!!

3) after centrifuging, some idiot took my acetone and replaced it with Deionised water! so instead of adding acetone which i was supposed to...i added DI water!! That resulted in me RE- centrifuging the damn thing AGAIN!!!!

4) because of that, i went home late!

5) Some idiot stole my labcoat and goggles! so ...DIE DIE i must get it back! ESP the goggles!!


But...hahha! still..after such a bad day, i went back home and had a nice time. =) a really nice time.

Seandainya, ku dapat memilih,
untuk tak pergi
dan tetap di sini..woo oh wooo..


Anyway, lets get back to today...which is ultimately is TUESDAY!!!!!! =)

In the morning, i met my neighbour which i have not bumped into before though we've been living near each other for 13 years and just now was the first time that i actually had a conversation with her!! haha! yess!!! great neighbours aren't we? haha!

her name is nadiah by the way...but i don't know why but freakishly i kept calling her naadira!madness i tell you.

So...i talked to her and i found out something....

alot of JC ppl..namely those she knows are friggin immature!!!! i can't believe that there is such a thing as bitchified politics!! OMG!! WTF is that?! ahhaha

i mean...from what she explained to me...ppl just look at her and don't like her..that kinda thing...That is sooooooo secondary school stuffs sey!

nora...my ex..if you happen to read this blog of mine particularly this entry...tell yourself if you happen to be like this or those involved ( i shan't mention names) ...SERIOUSLY!!!!GROW UP PPL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goodness!! thank god there is nothing like that in poly...everything is fine and dandy..

last time i assumed that JC ppl are still immature being in those uniforms and know nothing about how the real world is like....and also being really textbook based kinda ppl would still be like how they were in secondary school and i guess it's true!!

Alot of them have not yet blossomed to be young mature adults! well thats what i found out today from her.

So anyway.... i feel.. * smiles *....somewhat secure and safe. There are alot of bad things happening in my life yet...i'm doing ok...doing well in fact!

Things about shaf...i dont know...there's nothing more that i can say about it cept it's getting amorphous! sooner or later it's reason to exist will expire and just dissipate! This abstinence from her and just being her guardian angel aka pretty much a friend to reside in...it's..opening doors and making me move forward.

yeah she lied to me...and she keeps comparing herself to Rufi. yeah correct...Rufi has hurt me alot of times! ALOT!! and she has only lied to me once and deem that i hate her more than rufi. Claiming the reason being that i still love rufi and i am defending her!

- - - - - - - - - - R U B B I S H - - - - - - - - - - - - -

i hate shaf...but i hated rufi more! logically cos she has done soo many things to hurt me...but the reason that hate has subsided was because i trully appreciate her honesty. No matter what...Rufi never did lie to me. No matter how much it hurts...she would tell me.

Rufi... is a nice girl... so is shaf... the only difference is how they unscrew their life and how they make a stand for themselves.

Rufi...even though i may not agree on what she believes in...at least...she's firm.. She believes in herself. If thats the course of action she feels would bring her out of the shit hole she's in. Though at the end of it..she may still find herself in the shithole...at least she learns that whatever course of action she took previously is not the working and will soon find another.

Her sheer determination that i can confidently deem as an unrivaled determination..is what that makes me respect her alot. Though we may have some bad blood...we worked things out...but the credits mostly goes to her... She did it..she made a stand...yeah she hurt me...but this gamble worked and here we stand... still being able to smile and talk to each other. =)

Rufi...if you're reading this...hey...seriously... i'm proud of ya. =)

about my feelings towards Rufi? Haha! I'm sorry readers...i won't tell it here. only those who know me well and are close will know...

aah..finally.. a good entry in..

Well...i wanna get back to my report now.

a cinderella tale is in the making,
it's about a prince to be king,
it's about a love that never has an ending...

pray for me ,
in hopes that this love will last
and be strong.

pray for me,
in hopes that we will be together
Two people stuck fast
an eternity passed.

i am superman ;
7/12/2005 11:21:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/11/2005 01:05:00 PM

i had a double dose of happiness during the weekends and it was awesome!!!!!! really...i'm damn lucky ya know...oh well..that was the weekend.

today's Monday..

Today... my pants fell while i was running for the bus andI feel sooo exposed...

ah well..life still rocks for me... :) i can smile and smile..





when i look into your eyes...

i am superman ;
7/11/2005 12:56:00 PM

Synthesis of bimetallic nanoparticles of Co & Fe particles

Loading = 10% cobalt (II) & 10% iron (III)
Ratio between Cobalt and Iron = 1: 1
Base= 1g of silica
Reducing agent = Sodium borohydride

80% - 1g
1% - (1/80)g
20% - 0.250g of catalyst

let x be the mols of Iron(III)
0.250g = (55.85x) + (58.93x)
0.250 = 114.78x
x = 2.1780798 X 10-3 mols of FE

since ratio is 1: 1 ,

therefore the mols of Co = (8.854886126 X 10-4 )X 4
= 2.1780798 X 10-3 mols


Total mols of catalyst = mols of Co + mols of Fe
= 4.35615961 X 10-3 mols


Amt of Fe(NO3)3 = mols of Fe X Mr of iron(III) nitrate
=mols of Fe X 404
=0.879944241g

Amt of Co(NO3)2 = mols of Co X Mr of Cobalt(II) nitrate
= mols of Co X 291.03
= 0.633886565g

Since total amt of catalyst to be reduced = 4.287135165 X 10-3 mols

Thus At least. = 4.35615961X 10-3 mols of reducing agent is needed.

Since we are using 0.1M of reducing agent

Amt of h20 needed to prepare reagent = total mols of catalyst / 0.1M X 1000 X 10
= (4.35615961X 10-3 mols)/0.1M X 1000 X10
= 435.6159961ml of water is needed



BOYAKASHA!!!!! haha!! Eat your heart out!!

i am superman ;
7/10/2005 02:33:00 AM

i miss skating...

i am superman ;
7/10/2005 02:21:00 AM

"Her love, amorphous as it seems but is felt in each and every way...everyday"


Sweeeeet~!!!!

i am superman ;
7/07/2005 11:36:00 AM

paid 2 bucks an hour...
Whats there not to be sour?
heh..look away to the bright side of life,
feast your eyes at that figure of beauty there that might just be your future wife!

hahha!

this is morning madness with Faris...

Spank you!

i am superman ;
7/07/2005 08:38:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/05/2005 11:31:00 PM

i am superman ;
7/05/2005 11:08:00 PM

Look at me! i'm a scientist!!!

i am superman ;
7/04/2005 10:31:00 PM

cinderella

i am superman ;
7/04/2005 12:06:00 AM

i am superman ;
7/02/2005 12:06:00 AM