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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Hey! hey! hey eveyrone!!! =) it's been soo soo long since i actuallyblogged. i mean really...what happened to me?! Oh yeah there is a CHANGE IN ME!!! i don' tknow what is happening to me and poor baby...she has to experiance this.

I don't really know why i'm like this...really...i'm alwyas very moody but the thing is that i don't know whhy i am like this! I am going nuts! i'm soo soo sad but i dont know why.

Ya know i think i lack attention... seriously i think thats it. I mean really. have i been giving too much to other and not receiving at all? mAybe thats it. cos you see..when i went shopping...i paid attention to myself and i felt ABSOLUTELY GREAT!!! really really awesome!

Rufi may be giving me attention but...is it really because of the fact that she doesn't show me that she misses or love me that makes me grumpy that i'm not appreciated?? I don't know...i really don't... thats just the probability.

I feel that the BOTTOMLINE IS!!! >>>I dont feel appreciated<<<

haiz... is there no one out there that can really show me that they can't live without me?! i mean...most of the time...ppl don't need me!

Not Rufi , not Fidz , not shaz , not zul , not mars , not Hafeez , not Din , not Fizah , not suhaila , not Faisal , not Hilmis , not the Azmis , not syahirah , Aisyah or khadijah , not Farah , not Farahmy , not farahlyna , not janar , not ansar , not salman , not suhadi , not hui Qi , not jacklyn , not kah seng , not Kian kai , not Nabil , not Merry , not Miss Goo , not Khalid, not mahir , not hakim , not Adib , not Sivam , aloy , wen qing , gary , mei ling , joyce , shu wei , Dinesh , zhao yun , alvin , ambrose , zai Mao ( basically AD22) , fahmi, Faris , non of the chemical engineering Cohort.

Alot of ppl don't need me...even the ones closest to me.


Boy this sucks... if i go on..the more depressed i get.

i have good friends... but you seee...they have other ppl or things to do and they end up not hanging out with me and not paying attention to me!


Fidz + Fizah

Shaz + Zul

Rufi + rockclimbing

Mars + boyfriend

khalid + Friends

Janar + school

Syikynn + Zu

Shaz + ___

Din + Tarmizi

Suhaila + _____

Faisal + _____

Daphne + Kamil

Hafeez + Fizah


Faris + ??????????


I have no one who can return me the attention that i want! This Sucks...everyone has their own pair...Except sad ageing me!!!


i try to give attention...but i think now i'm running on fumes trying to give ppl attention! I'm Trying!! i'm burning out!!

It hurts like hell everytime i surf friendster! Ppl have soo much attention! Ppl have soo many friends or acquiantances! Ppl have soo many good words from others to fuel themselves to go on!!

I have nothing compared to most of them!!! I feel like shit!

I REPEAT!!

I FEEEEL LIIIKEEE!!!!

aaaah! no one's gonna hear it Faris....Forget it.


-Poof-

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4/13/2005 06:04:00 PM