Thursday, March 31, 2005
Ok the exams are OVER but i'm still here and i'm still gloomy and empty as ever. Whats up with me ? hoho! i just basically don't feel special at all.Like no treats me specially...maybe they think i'm special but they don't treat me like one. Most of the time, i'm just the third wheel. The invisible one...the unwanted. I'm like the information counter man who just sits there all the time in a building and ppl don't really care about me!! i'm there but not always thought of. kinda sad ain't it.i feel really really empty man. Like if you were to be inside of me...and where to shout out loud...your echoes would go on and on and on and on..just that your echoes would be a lil more faint as sound travels further away from you.= i'll stop here for now...i wanna go bathe =
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3/31/2005 03:12:00 PM
Monday, March 28, 2005
Finally after soo long...yes i'm done with my exams! wee! but bleargh...there are so many to be sad about. first of all i'd like to say that i'm not gonna get my As and this sucks badly. I worked so hard only to stumble upon the curse that i've been damned with...my forever careless mistakes. This just sucks...From a high potential of getting 2 As....heh..now..i'm not getting any. i feel like crying right now... really need a hug now. =(Haiz...ya know some day..i hope carelessness in exams will be forgiven and i'll get the marks for just understanding the whole subject. I mean thats what it's all about! UNDERSTANDING of the subject. They should have tests every fortnight... that way it's better.They are testing on memory which i clearly have a disadvantage in that aspect. haiz...i suck...ya know what...i think i am really retarded...i think i'm a mentally challenged person in a normal world facing normal ppl with high intelligence and not doing well at all. probably in the scale of a mentally challenged..yes...but heh..who else cares.either that OR...i'm just the worst of the normal ppl. haiz...who in the world placed this damn curse on me. this sucks ooooh this sucks..anyway the weekend is over...exams are over...which means... i get to spend time with my ayang and yeah..of course! MORE SLEEP for meabout my weekend...it sucked.basically my life sucks. yes it sucks really really bad. whats wrong with me? anywya back to my weekend..Rufi? The situation got the better of her...mummy? dunnow...Daddy? game...Sister? goneyoung brother? feels like he never existed(he's got a blog now)Shaz? having FunZul? fantasizingJaja? vanished!Mars? KIAAND FINALLY...me?D E A D!ok i'm done ranting away!
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3/28/2005 01:02:00 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
Today's malay Word Terpendam - hidden (strictlyfor feelings)SENTENCEPerasaan sayangku terhadapnya masih terpendam dalam hatiku ini sekian lama.
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3/26/2005 02:38:00 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
Today's word:
Terpegun : amazed
ayat
Saya terpegun apabila saya melihat eiffel tower.
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3/25/2005 02:05:00 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
I need you...I miss you...i love you...if only you knewi hope you know...maybe in time you'll know...maybe...i hope...
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3/21/2005 05:03:00 AM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
Life is very fragile; love, hate, anger, envy and many more that makes it fragile
This is just so cool. Having a laptop is the best thing ever. The worst part of today is that I’m watching a walk to remember when my loved one is away from me.
Rufi is right now away from me… I know that although we are so far away, we still love each other. I know it because I can feel it. I know that no matter what, although right now she is with someone else…doing other things being busy with her stuff, I know that late at night, when the sun sleeps and the reign of the moon begins, when the sky is, when the lights of night shines… we’ll be thinking of each other.
Baby I know that one day you’re gonna read this and I just wanna tell you that I love you dearly and you’ll always be on my mind…always in my heart.
It’s been so long since I actually typed out an entry and how peculiar it is to be writing this on my dad’s laptop.
Yesterday night will a night that I’ll never forget. It was the most beautiful night ever and how heavenly it was to be with someone you love.
I always dreamed of this, and finally after so long, the dream came true.
We went to the sun plaza park at night after studying at school. Initially it was scary but hand in hand we walked into the park and our fears just dissipated. The calm surrounding and the serenity that surrounded us enclosed us into our own world and soon it was as if it was only just the 2 of us. (despite the fact there were so many people at the park playing at the playground) well yeah we walked and we found a comfy little bench to sit on and soon she was snuggling up in my arms. Sweeeeet~!!!! she was lying on my chest while i cuddle her up;both of us trying to stay warm as it was quite windy.>NOOOOO we didn't do anything obscene OK<all we did was to just enjoy the beautiful night sky under the canopy of trees. Ahh it was wonderful and guess who joined us!?!? ok more like..WHAT joined us.IT WAS A KITTY CAT!!!! ahhaha!!! sibok ajer!! KPO Zorro betul! the cat was soo cute! He wanted to snuggle up with us too! ahhaha!! firstly...he was just playing and sitting around with us. Then we started to lead him up to the bench with us and he did!!Soon...i was lying on the bench...Rufi was lying on my chest while the cat was lying on her chest and all 3 of us we snuggling up. Haha!! And the cat wanted to kiss and smell Rufi and it was sooo adorable!!!! hahahah!!! =)i don't know why but at times...the cat was looking around...don't really know why actually but i think that the cat was looking out for us. *shrugs* well yeah...we were all snuggling up when another couple near our bench came.And again... it was just us...me and rufi.we didn't talk alot but i knew that both of us felt alot. Oh her warmth is just soo indescribable! It made me feel secure. It was soo comfortable that both of us nearly fell asleep. but b4 that actually happens...we checked the time..and soon..it was time to go.we snuggled one last time and were soon back on our feet. When we stood up...we hugged each other for a very very long time...as if..it would be the last. after dancing for while under the moonlight...it was time to go...we walked quietly to the bus stop..not making much noise all the way there. And for some unknown reason, the place was relatively quite quiet! it was scary actually cos never in my whole entire life have i heard nearly NOTHING! at the place we were at which usually would be quite noisy. i told Rufi about it and yeah..she was afraid...so was i.After hug and a peck on the lips... she was off...As i watched her board the bus...the feeling of my soul slipping away was intensifying. The bus rolled away and saw the last glimpse of her searching for a seat in the bus...i closed my eyes...walked away from that place...feeling empty...There she goes...
i am superman ;
3/19/2005 04:28:00 PM
Thursday, March 17, 2005
The best bus ride EVER!
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3/17/2005 12:07:00 AM
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
I see things...
this sucks...
multiply whatever i said to infinity and take it to the depth of forever and you still won't have any idea what i'm talking about.
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3/15/2005 11:22:00 AM
Friday, March 11, 2005
"character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. only through experiences of trail and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success acheived "helen keller
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3/11/2005 01:30:00 AM
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
I'm the LUCKIEST GUY on earth man!!! yesterday...oh what a day it was. I went out with a pretty girl!!!!! i mean usually, pretty girls don't hang out with me but...this one did!!! i had a great time with her! i really really really did!!I mean she was not only pretty yesterday, but yesterday she was stunning!!!! I was going GAGA!!!! over her!!i saw her in the morning and WOW!! my heart beat soo fast! and for soo long!!!! i couldn't take my eyes of her...i really couldn't. maybe to others she wasn't pretty at all...or just simply ok( from sources, she looks good) ...but to me...she like wow!! she's as pretty as claire danes but YESTERDAY!!! she's like the prettiest girl that i've laid my eyes on!! it felt like how i first laid eyes on her...i was soo soo mesmerised.ok the reason for my reaction is that...my hypothesis looks as if it's coming true! it started with her wearing like how i always dreamed her of wearing. ( white blouse , light brown pants and white sandels) oh heavenly...i don't know why but i would love to see her in those clothings , and yeah my wishes came true.anyway, i had a great time with her... sent her home, spent a little quality time with each other...oh yeah!! we threw paper aeroplanes!! wee~! it's been so long since i did that...and things are better now...i used to do it alone but i had a pretty girl to do it with me!!!i really wished that i didn't have to leave...i wanted to just be with her all day long and not let go... but yeah we were both tired and tied down with loads of work to do. I wanted her to get some rest too.but seriously, it was the greatest moments of my life when i was with her...watashiwa ayishteru kaori amy....
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3/09/2005 05:44:00 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
I was blogging and suddenly looked at the date and my my my...it's the 3rd of march. Time really doesn't wait for anyone eh? i have loads of studying to do...lots of thinking to be done...lots of confidence to regain.
I'm Turning 19 in a month...
I wonder...
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3/03/2005 07:12:00 PM
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3/03/2005 06:47:00 PM
