1>She's Angry at me!
2>She's Angry at me!
3> She's ANGRY at me!!!
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ok now..for i dont know why...but i still feel horrible. Ok yeah it's obvious why...Rufi blocked me just now. I was teaching Suhaila on the phone while handling 4 chat windows; rufi was one of them....rufi going Crazy! Acting so...i don't know..unlike her. i was soo engrossed in teaching Suhaila that it was hard for me to chat with ANY of them! yeah..my status wasn't away cos...well...i was scrolling through the songs in THe corrs cd which i found lying on the floor of my room, was trying to find THe Corr's one night. it was soo difficult for me at that particular moment.
Yes...Rufi talked to herself and she blocked me. gee...ya know...what i'd love to do...if i were in front of her? well...i'd put my finger on her lip, give a kiss and cuddle her up...i don't know why...but i just do...*Shrugs*
i don't know why but these few days...i've been saying things impulsively.
haaiz...ya know i just realised that i've craashed and burned for abt 2 years already. Nothing bad about it...but makes me wonder...am i too timid to take the plunge? probably i am...or simply...i think i'm no more the gentleman i used to be...all soo romantic, sensitive...and much more.
I know the habit that i'm getting into now...i always like to save it for the best moment possible...though it's trivial but...i know that i'm gonna do iti know it's gonna happen..cos...ive planned about it! But...i think girls nowadays...don't have the time to wait for such stuffs...
i remember...when i was close to Rufi...i wanted to ask her to be mine in the most special way possible... i planned that During the Term break...i'm gonna take her out...make it the best day she's ever had...
Firstly...i'd go to her house and hope her mum lets me in...and wake her up. The First thing that i want her to see when she wakes up...is me...holding a nice bouquet of flowers..(arranged by me) and giving her a kiss.
Then... Once She Gets off the bed...hopefully she will...gets dressed nicely. Then i'll tell her...that today...she'll receive 3 gifts...and that she'll know the First one now...and the other 2...later in the day.
Her first gift...a bottle of perfume to wear for this special day...i was thinking of buying her Miracle cos it fits her character...lovely and a touch of a spice to it...just like the perfume.
Then...i'd take her to breakfast...just a light one... ya know i doubt it would be morning by then... with me around her bed...i think she'll be rolling around for hours and lazying around...just hopefully i don't fall asleep with her. Hahaha! it would be nice though.( day dreams...haaiz)
then i'll have a nice trip in the MRT with her to town... longer ride...so have more time with her. and as an alternative...i was thinking of hiring a london Cab and taking a nice ride there to town. then once we are at town...and have a nice lunch at the hotel and we go Eat and Eat! While Eating... i wanna plan to give her a drawing that i drew...tadaa! her 2nd present! With a card saying "i have a girl that i dream of each night and i daydream about everyday... i couldn't really figure out who is she and so one day i decided to draw bits of those images that i have in my head after everynight...and when it all comes together..it happened to be you..."
then...take a nice walk at town...long time i've never been there anyway. then once our tummy is alright... i wanna go take the inverse bungee with her!! it's soo cool man... then after a fine time with her i'd take her to the movies at suntec city in the evening. When we reach there... the pizza that i ordered specially for us is there...as well as 2 tumblers of hot chocolate and the blanket already placed on our Seats (those sofa seats) . Sigh...i can just imagine...both of us... snuggling up with our pizza...and sipping hot chocolate...while enjoying a great movie.it would be really really nice...
In the evening...after the movie, we'll walk down to esplanade...have a take away dinner if we're still hungry...which i think i'll still be...khekhe!!at this time...prolly it would be at least 9 o clock..with our dilly-dallies and all...prolly in the process take a neoprint or something. Then...i'll arrange a boat ride...have a nice time with her on the boat..prollly we'd scare the uncle by rocking the boat alot...hahaha!
then...make our way up to the rooftop...and there...i will have a telescope...a mat(Tikar...not the MAT as in the crazy malay boys) , and prolly some inflatable pillows... we'd gaze at the stars...and indulge in the beautiful scenary thats laid before us...Cuddle up for a while...start singing a song for her...and after the song...(boyzone's Everyday i love you)
at One point the ending...when the song goes... " if i asked...would you say yes...together we're the very best...i know that i am trully blessed... everyday i love you...and i'll give you my best...everyday i'll love you...Rufi. Then i'll whisper in her ear...baby would you be my steady?. Then...at that point..i'll slip out the customised ring that i made...whereby the inside of the ring will be engraved the 3 words... i love you...
I'd say that...would those 3 words be erased...so would my love for her...
hopefully...she'd say yes....oh god...it's soo late...ya know...i'll just cut the story short...and well... basically...
Once we're done on the roof.... i'll send her home..in a london cab of course...then...i'll tuck her to bed...and make sure that i'll be the last thing she sees b4 she goes to sleep... once..she sleeps...i'll then be off... and before i go...i'll leave her a note... and it goes something like this
My love...
yet again... i've proven you that..you are patient...kind..and that you're not all bad. you're the love of my life... and i trully love you and i'll love you till my very last breath. Rufi...believe in hope...and most importantly...yourself.
aargh..something like that..i need to go to bed...i'm tired... thats pretty much what i wanna say to her...but for now..i wanna go to bed....Sigh....i miss her terribly...and i still love her...*hugs self* (there there Faris...) i hope i'll be alright.... Well Folks..i wanna go to bed now!! Take care and goodnight! *waves*
