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Thursday, October 28, 2004

life...it ain't as simple as we think...nor can it be soo complicated that it doens't have any solutions. A buddhist monk once said... "why worry about the situation when there's a solution to it?" the only problem is...when will the solution come..would we ever find it? One day we will..but do we have the time? We'll have to segregate our time wisely.

Now...i have a solution to my misery. But...i'm not courageous enough to do it. and most of all...i don't like going around and asking... "hey can i get to know you?" i hate doing that! i mean if afterall that..i become close to that person..then i guess it's ok...BUT...seriously..NO! that doesn't happen often. All they do is just fill up the spaces in my msn list. Their presence...worthless!

Seriously eh...i don't feel like talking to anyone...even Jaja...seriously...i have no mood. talking about Jaja...it seems as though i'm drifting away from her. Cause?? I don't know...haven't figured it out yet. Prolly it's just me...i don't have the mood. Or maybe...something else. i need to figure out why.

Anyway.. today...had floorball training just now. More malay guys now...much better. Kelakar sey... somehow..while i was laughing with them...i just wished that Jaja was with me joining in the fun. Don't ask me why...i know that she would like it here. With Rufi having the time of her life in rockclimbing and also her own activities... Life seems fine i guess...she has friends...ok mainly..she has Hafeez.. Faaaarrrk man.i'm jealous again. I think if she knows...she'd be soo happy and be saying.. " hah! Take that Faris!" i bet shes happy that i'm jealous like crazy. She was jealous of someone when i was close to her.

I need something to clear this misery of mine... one thing that i can't stand is that Rufi gets away so happily with hafeez...and me?! i'm so damn miserable...she lost her love for just by a snap of a finger....and i'm here...with an aching heart. Well...i've got a big bruise on my shin...i wanna go tend to it. Goodnight whoever is reading... i hope i'll be to my usual self again...

i am superman ;
10/28/2004 11:55:00 PM