Wednesday, October 06, 2004
*Yawwwns!* aaahh...that was a nice sleep...
damn those contractors...it's already 7pm and still drilling holes into that damn home! Beat it already!!! It's sickening to hear those noises!
Well..notihing new actuallly...i didn't have any dream just now....so sad.
But hahha!! i can still remember what my dream in the morning was! Khekhe!!! Ok lets get back to the story...
now where did i stop yaar? hmmm ouh ouh!! yeah! the RIng thingy!!! ok
ahem ahem...
So...finally i got to give her the ring that i wanted to give her all these while. Everything went fine and dandy...Well...after that hugging session...we started walking again...and well what i did was ...well...yeah...i asked her the question...baby...would you be mine?
For a while...there was just plain silence...but we continued walking... ThEN!! our hands started brushing against each others...i wanted to!! But i had refraine from doing so...then...haahaha!! Wooooot!!~ out of the blue...she just held my hand...and said...something like this...
"Let actions lead the way"...she gave me a kiss on the cheek...and whispered..." i love you too Faris..."
THAT Had to be the greatest moment!! oh god i felt like flying...
So yeah...after that...things were back to normal now...except that Rufi was much more understanding...and yeah..she finally was alright with the idea of me being close friends with Jaja. And yeah...after some time...she apologised and haaaizzzz... was it simply perfect or what....
We were going so well...until...one day...hahaha!! I GOT AN OFFER BY A UNIVERSITY IN AUSTRALIA TO STUDY THERE!!! I WAS SOO HAPPPY!!!
BUT!!...really..
Folks...it didn't turn out that well eventually...Rufi was of course happy for me...but also...Sad...that we had to separate...what also saddens me was that...SHe still haven't gave the word to her mum that she doesn't want to get married to Rizal...she's too scared to break her mum's heart and go against her wishes. Thats when...there were troubles again.
Then...yeah...so...i figured...hey...i'm old enough now...and why not ask her to marry me!!? And follow me to australia! besides...i' m able to come back to singapore every weekend!! hahah! things aren't that bad...SO yeah...
One day... We went to the esplanade and FINALLY!! i got to carry out the plan...but this time..Diffferent Ring! hahaha!! it was the real one this time!
and all she did..was to hug me, gave me a kiss...and cuddle up after i asked her the question...so yeah...i took it as a yes...
so on that day that i was about to go off to australia..she was there... my parents were all there and so was shaz and zul...shaz and zul will be going with me cos we are going to same University. Haha!! Great eh...
so yeah...we were hanging out together...until.. RUfi wanted to talk to me... so yeah...
we talked...and...suddenly..Rufi said : Faris...i failed to tell my mum to break off the whole thing with my mum...i just couldn't!
Faris: What you mean?!!? why didn't you tell her Rufi?!
Rufi : i can't!! she made all the preparations already!! and so did rizal's parents!! i don't wanna break her heart Faris!!
Faris: Rufi...*sobs* aarrggh!!! this sucks!! Why did you get my hopes up again Rufi?!! WHY?!
Rufi : Faris...i love you!! i really do!! thats why i want you to be at my engagement day to tell them off for me Faris!! i'm getting engaged in 2 weeks time!
Faris : i'd do anything for you rufi...but in 2 weeks! thats when i'll came back!! i have orientation and all! AARrggghhh!!!! how?! i'm not so sure!!
Rufi: Pls...come back as soon as possible..there is still a chance.. *hugs* i love you Faris...no matter what happens...i'll love you...
Faris : ooh god..i hope i'll come back on time...*hugs rufi tight*
so yeah..i did go for the flight and well...i told my friends about it...As usual...they adviced me and so did my mum...We all understood what rufi was in...and so...nobody was angry.
I was definitely scared...scared of losing her again...
The WEek passed soo slowly...so slowly that i felt as though a god has extended the hours of the day... the seconds hand of the clock moved ultimately slow...and i was there to witness every moment it ticked...i counted down days.... i couldnt.. and things got worse when i couldn't contact her...her phone was constantly engaged!! and i got Paranoid that i couldn't sleep each night!!
When the 2 torturous week was over... i quickly packed my things and was ready to go off... But aarrgghh!! i don't know why but THINGS JUST HAD to go WRONG!!!
Aargh!! we couldn't believe that we forgot our plane tickets!!! so we missed the flight and we had to wait till there was a flight...we only got on board a plane in the late morning! and we'll reach there at around 10pm!!
i sat on the plane restless...feeling as though the plane wasn't going fast enough and that i could run faster...i kept track of the time constantly...in the midst of the calm atmosphere in the plane...i was tearing peanut wrappings to it's smallest bits...eating Fast in hope to that time would pass faster. i was shivering...controlling myself and keeping myself as composed as possible. i grit my teeth and bit my lip to control myself. i could hear the beat of my heart...and it seemed like a time bomb ticking away;about to explode. oh it was hell! then on impulse...i went up from my seat and marched to the captain's cabin and knocked on the door shouting at them! asking them to go faster!!! i was about to break the door down when i was held back by the authorities on the plane! i was screaming and fighting for a way to get in to the captain's cabin to take over the controls to make the airplane go faster. Suddenly... there was a huge blow to my head and i was knocked out.
i woke up with a daze... and i found myself being handcuffed and surrounded me by who i don't know!! where's shaz and zul!? then they gave me a glass of water... and the on board police interrogated me.
"so Friend...what are you working under? the JI or Al-qaeda?! Who else is involved in this on the plane?! Tell me!! "
Faris : Huh?! woah woah whaaaooh!!! Hold on a min!! i'm not a terrorist...firstly...i would like to apologise for whatever i did... i'm innocent! anyway i'm mohamed Faris and i'm here with my FRiends from australia and we are students on a break...pls...un-Cuff me!
"but do you know that you caused a major disturbance to all in the plane? you will be heavily guarded and cuffed until we reach there and when the authorities back in singapore get hold of you"
Then...shazni and zul came to try to prove that i wasn't a Terrorist at all. Still i was handcuffed...detained to where i was. So....i started to explain everything...about my life..about Rufi..and the situation... haaha! Soon...there was quite a crowd listening to my story about Rufi
Faris : so officer.. you see..thats why i acted that way...i don' t wanna lose her again....
"alright...we'll explain to the authorities there..but for now...all i can do you for you is to uncuff you and we're gonna land soon"
So...the plane landed... and when the plane got to the bething area...i got off my seat and i realised that i was the only one standing up... then when i'm walking towards the plane door...suddenly....everyone started cheering for me!! They were going like..." you go Faris! GO make her yours!! all the best!! and etc. EVen the captain was wishing me the best of luck.
They were letting me be the first person of the plane so that i could reach to rufi on time! i turned back and looked at shaz and zul...all they did was to give me a smile and a nod of approval that it was alright if i went off first.
Zul : faris...you go on ahead! we'll catch up with you
Authority on the plane : i've got a cab waiting for you...go Faris...quickly!
So i got off the plane and moment i was at the gate...i saw a few policemen waiting for me. i was a bit scared... but amazingly...they were not there to arrest me! instead!! they escorted me! ahahha!! they were clearing the way for me.
Apparently! the whole airport i think got to know my story about me and Rufi!! Ahahah! boy...
i thought the police would only stopped escorting me till the airport but surprisingly...they are also gonna escort my Cab there!!! hahaha! so the swat team Vans, police cars... and motorbikes were surrounding the cab that i was in ( not to blast me into smithereens but to esocrt me all the way to Rufi's house!! )
Once again..i took note of the time...it was 9+pm and i had to get there as fast as possible. with the escort and all...i reached her place in a cool 20mins.
At her void deck..there were lots of ppl and since she only lived on the 2nd storey...the celebration dinner was held downstairs.
Everyone looked at the cohort of the police cars.THey thought the president came or something... ahahha!
The SWAT team got into action and cleared the path for me to get up there...i ran as fast as i could to stop the proceedings..the flight of stairs that was laid before me was long and torturous althought it was 2 flights of stairs up to the 2nd floor...
Sweat and blood ( from the hard knock in the plane by something hard) trickled down my forehead...
then...i finally reached her front door..packed with relatives and friends...i squeezed myself through the crowd...and when i finally got a clear view...there she was...a figure of beauty...dressed in a white gown with sequins that sparkle like diamonds! there she was...my one and only...my one and only Rufi... she's never looked that beautiful in my whole entire life b4. She looked like an angel...
She saw me...and with a small smile...she greeted me. i stopped in my tracks...soon that smile of hers...turned into a frown...she looked down and there HE was..Rizal came up from behind her and held her hand...
Faris: NO...i can't be!!!! *a tear ...followed by another ran down my cheeks* NOOOO!! pls..don't say i'm too late!! No!!
Rizal : Faris...it's over...she's mine now...and i'm glad that you showed up for i'd like to make peace with you...
i stood there...shellshock and in disbelief...i fell to my knees and tear by tear my eyes shed...
Rufi bent down to my level and i looked up... SLowly...she took my both my hands and in each palm...she placed the rings that i gave her...
i know it was wrong but..both of us..held hands... for the last time...and i cried...
i woke up with my fist clenched on my bedsheets...with cold tears in my eyes,...so ppl..thats the dream that i had this morning...it's the saddest dream that i've had thus far...
i do'nt know what i can learn from this...but...seriously..i know there's something to it. that i should gather from this.
hoogod... i miss her... *hugs* and i trully love her. Well farewell folks...i need to go study now. Take care...and goodnight... may your dreams be so happy~...
i am superman ;
10/06/2004 09:02:00 PM
