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Sunday, September 26, 2004

Hey Ppl! Yes i'm back! and my... it's been quite a while since i got a decent entry in eh? hmm yeah...test projects and recently...exams coming up. Alot have been going on...many changes in my life...but one thing that has never changed is my love. My love for Rufi. Yep... I still LOVE RUFI... amazingly...just as much as before. i love her like crazy. I still wanna be that man who takes care of her, be there for her and simply...just be her everything.
Jaja knows this...so does my friends. They keep saying, "go find one! and you'll get over her" but seriously...i don't wanna!!

One ultimate reason why i don't wanna move on is because... as the song goes... she helped me free the ME inside. Thats really true....i'm still living a lie...most of the times cos i can't find someone who i can really be myself. There is this side of me that i've been trying to unlock, but failed many times. The only 1 person who have unlocked that real me... is Rufi...not even Nora was successful to do that. Cos... one thing's for sure....that i can trust Rufi...relatively over Nora of course. Though Rufi aint really what i want yet...but i know that deep inside me...she will be one day. She just needs someone to open up her wings and things will be just fine and dandy. But sadly...my chance was taken away from me.... i wish she hadn't...but she DId...rufi didn't give me time to let my 'great plan' to unfold.

I know that i should be studying now...but seriously...she's always on my mind! When i sit down to study..all of a sudden. I felt as though i was back in the past...oh how i remembered the time when i studied with her at the hospital. That was just simply too good to be true that THAT ACTUALLY happened!! i've NEVER imagined that it would come true but it did!!! IT DID!! and how wonderful it was. i remembered that no matter how shitty my day was, she'll ALWAYS brighten up my day....someway...somehow.

If she actually happens to stumble upon my blog which i'm sure she will one day...cos...these few days...Many ppl have already stumbled across my blog. gave me a heck of a heart attack! But IF lah eh...she happens to come across my - G - O - L - B - (read is backwards PPl!) khekhe! WEll...i think she might understand more about my feelings and really....SHE SHOULD REALLEh ReaaLLeh! STOP ASSUMING SOOOO MUCH!!
its killing me...and she doesn't know that...i hope she does...

I've got to go off and study now...i better...if not ...Die sey. Ok ppl Night!



i am superman ;
9/26/2004 08:58:00 PM