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i am superman ;
9/30/2004 01:30:00 AM

Dagnamit!!! Once again has predicted, left my broken heart open and SHE RIPPED IT OUT!!! Time...once again isn't just on my side. Really...me and jaja was just plain talking about studies...and then POOP!! SHe was there...i know her heart ached like crazy!! But pls Understand that I LOVE YOU!! NOT JAJA!! well..the love as in I LOVE you thingy not i LOVE Coca Cola thingy! JaJa is my friend!! But she's of course somewhat special... *winks* just like SHaz and Zul...they are my HAPPY THREE FRIENDS!! Khekhe!

ok First of all...i just wanna Say that...YEAH BABEH!!! I NAILED THAT ET PAPER GOOD!!! Ya Allah!! THANK YOU !! hahaha!!! *hugs* it was sure worth it that i studied throughout the whole night!!! I seriously Seriously NEED some sleep now...so tired...didn't get to feel my bed AT ALL!!! So tired...but i know that i won't sleep at ease cos i've got soo much to study. Yeah although i did manage to go through matrices and 2nd order ODE. thats enough for today i guess. Studied with Jaja again... was very fruitful...i love studying at sch...so peaceful...and well...no distractions at all!! unlike at home...aaah...home is just heavenly man. Food in the kitchen...computer with unlimited access..PS2...mp3 player...and nice bed & pillows...my new squishy pillow!! SO nice....

Ya know...i'm really lucky to have all these...thats why ... i want to repay my parents for giving me such a life. Thats why i have this on going will to go on and study as hard and smart as possible. I want to repay their kindness with soo much more than what they have given me. Deep inside i know that my parents just want me to be happy and give the best that i have...but...i think thats not enough for them...i feel they deserve soo much more. I still have those images...beautiful images of my future...

Just imagine....
Each morning...in my Beautifully renovated house...i get up...to see my loving wife snuggling up beside me. My princess ...aaah...such smooth skin she has... fair and radiantly glowing as the first rays of the sun settle upon her. So sound asleep like a baby... deep in her peaceful slumber.
With a touch of my sweet kiss, she awakens...slowly... she unveils her beautifully crafted eyes...eyes that when looked upon, one would see the vast love that she posseses for her young Prince...her one and only...mE!! Upon seeing her prince... she lashes out her prize winning smile to greet him...and with such politeness and charisma...her prince whispers lovingly to her... "good morning baby..." aaah.....now thats what i call a GOOD morning!!! hahaha!

Prolly after a while of snuggling up together again... take a nice shower and gets all Nice smellin! i'd be smelling of Davidoff's Cool Water , neatly dressed in Formal clothes... while my wife... would be dressed in a ladies's Formal Clothes...long pants...nice blouse and coat and smelling of Escada's Ibiza happy <<>>

Then once we are ready...we'd go down together and the first thing i see when the kitchen's insight...my mum feeding my First born child... while the cook is laying out breakfast for the whole family...aahh..then at the guest room at the back...when i pop my head back there...i see my dad...reading the newspaper on an OSIM relaxing chair.

I grabbed my cup of horlicks and took my wife for a nice relaxing walk at the backyard... now the backyard is soo much bigger cos we conbined my neighbour's(auntie beggum and uncle anwar) backyard together with mine! there's sorta a small pond and waterfall in between the 2 house where once the fence used to separate both houses.
The backyard basically is japanese garden... equipped with a beautiful rotanda with a hammock there. Wow...simply beautiful...

well thats the sort of morning that i'd love to have...and to make that happen...i need to keep working hard and smart!! i need to earn lots of money and still...being able to spend loads of time with my family...well then...it's really getting late.. and i need to sleep... so tired.. *yawns*... i'll continue the other half...that is when i get back from work...but for now..thats all for today folks! Goodnight and toodles!!

Ps : one thing that strikes me the hardest is that...the princess in my future..sounds like rufi...fair and radiant skin...imagining her with short hair..she just fits right IN! hooboy...i miss her ....and if once again... IF Rufi happens to stumble across my blog...i just wanna let her know that i love her with my all my heart...gee...IF only... well toodles!!

i am superman ;
9/27/2004 12:50:00 AM

Hey Ppl! Yes i'm back! and my... it's been quite a while since i got a decent entry in eh? hmm yeah...test projects and recently...exams coming up. Alot have been going on...many changes in my life...but one thing that has never changed is my love. My love for Rufi. Yep... I still LOVE RUFI... amazingly...just as much as before. i love her like crazy. I still wanna be that man who takes care of her, be there for her and simply...just be her everything.
Jaja knows this...so does my friends. They keep saying, "go find one! and you'll get over her" but seriously...i don't wanna!!

One ultimate reason why i don't wanna move on is because... as the song goes... she helped me free the ME inside. Thats really true....i'm still living a lie...most of the times cos i can't find someone who i can really be myself. There is this side of me that i've been trying to unlock, but failed many times. The only 1 person who have unlocked that real me... is Rufi...not even Nora was successful to do that. Cos... one thing's for sure....that i can trust Rufi...relatively over Nora of course. Though Rufi aint really what i want yet...but i know that deep inside me...she will be one day. She just needs someone to open up her wings and things will be just fine and dandy. But sadly...my chance was taken away from me.... i wish she hadn't...but she DId...rufi didn't give me time to let my 'great plan' to unfold.

I know that i should be studying now...but seriously...she's always on my mind! When i sit down to study..all of a sudden. I felt as though i was back in the past...oh how i remembered the time when i studied with her at the hospital. That was just simply too good to be true that THAT ACTUALLY happened!! i've NEVER imagined that it would come true but it did!!! IT DID!! and how wonderful it was. i remembered that no matter how shitty my day was, she'll ALWAYS brighten up my day....someway...somehow.

If she actually happens to stumble upon my blog which i'm sure she will one day...cos...these few days...Many ppl have already stumbled across my blog. gave me a heck of a heart attack! But IF lah eh...she happens to come across my - G - O - L - B - (read is backwards PPl!) khekhe! WEll...i think she might understand more about my feelings and really....SHE SHOULD REALLEh ReaaLLeh! STOP ASSUMING SOOOO MUCH!!
its killing me...and she doesn't know that...i hope she does...

I've got to go off and study now...i better...if not ...Die sey. Ok ppl Night!

i am superman ;
9/26/2004 08:58:00 PM

testing testing testing...eerr houstan...is Savferrisz good to go? Counter checking Freedom....

i am superman ;
9/22/2004 11:54:00 PM

wooooooot~!!!! WE won!!! Muakakakakaa!! ok first of all this win is dedicated to MOST IMPTLY!! JAJA and also....Shazni who wasn't able to come play for the match due to injury. Heh...talking about injury, i'm injured too. Muscle Fatique!!! Cannot tahan!! i feel like i need those electric wheels chairs... prolly equipped with a 200 hp engine! Swweeeet!!

ok wait..i'm getting dozy....5 4 3 ZZZzzzZZZZZzzzZzZzZZ

i am superman ;
9/17/2004 01:59:00 AM

haaiz...kosong betul my blog...like the void that she left in my heart. ANYWAY...i'm still alive folks! yep still alive and kicking ppl!! Welll it's been a while since i actually blogged. Yeah...troubles of the heart and disorientation of the mind. It kills ya know.... Alot of things happened lately ...whiich includes a HUGE Blow to my heart...it went like...lalallalalala then BOOOOOM!!!!My heart broke into pieces so small that its pieces can pass through the eye of the needle. As the pieces of my heart tinkle down to the ground like hailstones from the sky, my eyes started to bathe in cold tears.

Damn those heartaches....whatever happened to the stone hearted Faris that i knew back then??? Seriously...wo zhen de bu zhe dao...

Well...still...there's something that i can always be happy about. Thats non other than ... my one...and only...Jaja! hahha i put her to sleep just now after a long long talk with her. It's been quite a while since i actually talked to her. It's soooo soooo annoying when i can't get her and when she tries to get me in return to no avail!!! it's been at least 4 days without her in my life!! and already...it seemed like forever!!!

i Felt sooo sooo sad!! and my life during that period of time...was really really EMPTY!!! I don' t know why but really...she's growing on to me !!! she's like FOOD!!! i think i can only survive without her for 3 days max!! beyond that...i'll be a dead Kuku Bird!

Hoooboy it's morning...i better go to sleep now..take care everyone..till next time...this is Faris!!! dozing off! :)

i am superman ;
9/16/2004 03:58:00 AM

hey there everyone! it's time that my blog has a new entry..actually..there's alot to say everyday...but somehow...i'm just too sad to write anything down. yeah it's about Rufi...i still love her and miss her just as much as b4. Today...was my last lesson of public speaking with her. ..i got to smell her..but..sadly...still..no kiss nor an ounce of love from her.
i'm trying to care less..but i can't...i just love her too much. ok i know she can't hear/read this but heck..i need to let off some steam...

Rufi...i love you sooo much!! i am so close to you!! but why can't i let you be mine?! Aarrggghh!!! i love everything about you Rufi!! EVERYTHING!! you may say that you're pessimistic and all...but rufi! i have accepted who you are!! You're Getting engaged to HIM!! but i don't want HIM to be taking care of you when you grow up Rufi!!! i want to be that man!! Arrgghh!!! Why must you get engaged!? I love you! i love you!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

Ok that felt soo much better... Anyway, jaja... *hugs* i love her soo much...ya know...she is sooooo adorable!!! cannot tahan sey. Esp when we start talking funny! hahaha! Saying Jaja and BulBul instead of "I" and "me"...so some of our sentence will be like

Jaja : Bulbul...jaja Tired already and Jaja want to go to sleep..Bulbul nak tido?
Bulbul : Bulbul also tired...Can JaJa sing for bulBul a lullaby?!

hahaha!! *squeezes Jaja tight* Sooooo adorable when she says things like that...she's turning into a fine lady..not that she isn't in the first place...now just much more feminine. =)Anyway, Jaja is asleep now...called her...but her phone was switched off and just now called her again and she's asleep. aww...

Yesterday was great...studied with her Till 11 at sch and we had PIZZA!! so nice sey...just the 2 of us...nearly alone at school eating pizzas...enjoying the silence..Haiz...it was such a nice moment.

Anyway today is FRIDAY!!! :D FLoorBall friendly with SP. Well i'm off to bed now... need to regain my strength and catch up on my sleep. Well!! Toodles ya all! and have a merry goodnight!!

i am superman ;
9/03/2004 01:40:00 AM