Monday, August 09, 2004
Hey there guys! Sorry for the absence of presance in the last few days... well yeah..life..my life is different now...in the last few days were it's transition states and boy did it suck or what!
But first and Foremost...MY TERM TESTS ARE OVER!! hahaha! boy did i nail that Uo1(Unit Operation) paper..and i nailed it good..ok lah i hope it's good enough for an A... though my final answer has a mathematical error of 100 times...*shakes head* But yeah...at least i know how to do...it was easy to me though some ppl found it difficult. Well i was soo relieved after the paper...finally!! it's over!!! had floorball ...and man it felt sooooooo good to play around again. Though Rufi was still in the back of my mind the whole time. i miss her soo much...
Something happened that night before...a night for me to remember, it was partly my fault...was not thinking right...partially asleep while trying to wake my friend up. Readers..i hurt her...without knowing initially. Well... i wish she could be more understanding...that i need her just as badly and love her just as much. ya know...even after the exams i still can't sleep cos i miss her soo badly...it's been more than a week since i actually had a nice sleep with nice dreams.
ya know if she happens to find out about my blog...Rufi...i just want to say that i love you very much. i went to the esplanade today and it hurt soo much thinking about that day. Its the first time i actually did something like that... with someone who i really wanna be with. i'm so tired of finding and fighting for someone... i wanted her to be mine... Argh...i better not talk about it
it's gonna make me weep soo badly.
Well that was before my Uo1 paper. After that...JaJa kept me company the whole time. Some times... i wish i could do something for her..i dont like being helped and not being able to help in return. I feel soooo miserable!!! i can't help Rufi anymore!! she doesn't want to...i know it's dangerous..cos i might go head over heels for her uncontrollably again.
Anyway, after that night..yeah...we won't be able to close anymore. It hurts alot! yeah i did tell her that everything will be alright and everything. that i'd be happy for her and all...yeah i should.. but to get there..it's gonna hurt like hell!
Well that was the other day...just when i was about to celebrate the end of my tests...that day's ruined...and i thought..i would be soo happy once the hols come.
Just now went out with the guys and JaJa... to the esplanade...memories...i told JaJa about it. haiizzzz....sigh sigh sigh...Jaja Jaja Jaja Jaja... i want don't want i can't stupid confused disoriented! I'm tired...i think that'll be all ppl! take care..and goodnight ladies and Gents!!
