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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

*yawns and stretches* I feel SOooo Crappy today!!! But still...god..thank you for letting me live another day. I dont know why i feel like this. I feel...very empty..lonely.. why am i feeling like this? Prolly cos i just lost someone close to me...yeah Rufi. i know that i can't get close to her anymore. Man it hurts alot...alot alot alot alot!!!! Each time something bad happens between us esp during the weekends..i'd be oblivious to whats going on! All of a sudden... HE took back part of Rufi back... AARGGH!! each time i mention her name. my heart aches like crazy! i feel that nobody is there to care for me..nobody that i want...

haiz...i feel like a dumb ass ... with my botak head...it feels even worse!! got no self confidence... i feel that i've lost everything. All that i have left that are my books and guess i'll hide behind them again;be oblivious of my surroundings.I don't wanna do that again!!! i don't wanna be alone...

Yesterday by the way was a great day.... had FloorBall Workshop! =) My line was awesome! we played really well..though Kai wasn't there. Ben was there to replace him...pain in the ass that one. really i can't believe that he said " Before i pass...i look at you first..then i look at the ball..and i look at you again to make sure you're alright...then look at ball again..then pass." Waahpiangz!! that really shut me up. i don't wanna say anything anymore. haiyer.... But overall...we played well. STill...i'm scared...cos i do'nt know how well we will fair against the rest! we need more friendlies.

OH NO!!! it's 11.40 already!! 've got to go to sch!! i'm soo darn late!!!! haiz..school...who's there to look forward to...i come to sch alone..go back from sch alone. Hoowell... here i go again.... =( sobs....

i am superman ;
8/11/2004 11:41:00 AM