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Monday, August 23, 2004

Hey blog! Yesterday i had another argument with her...well not really argument but just...a little heart to heart talk. I slept with her that yesterday...a day i'll always cherish. Anyway I cried my heart out yesterday...all the pain, the agony as well as anger...were expressed in tears. I cried like never before...i cried like that cos.. i cried about my past...the heat of the moment..and for the Future. i knew that..readers...*looks down* i'll never be able to be with her. My chance was given to me...but i was a few days to late to optimise it. Now here i am...standing before you, heart broken and disoriented.

STill i've got something to smile about. =) >>>> Jaja <<<< Her Smile just makes things soo much brighter to know that at least someone acknowledges my existance in TP or on this earth.
Just now... yeah...was sitting down on a bench... then..suddenly..I SAW A BLUE TUDUNG!! Haha! It was for sure my JaJa! yeah though we can't be seen in public together or something like that...but still...we kinda get to steal glimpses and smiles at each other. Khekhe! Saaaaaayang JaJa!!

Still, scary thoughts of her...getting a boyfriend/husband still haunt me. Im leaning alot on her at the moment and...ya know...i'm scared of Falling...i know that if i fall...i'll fall really hard this time round...and it's gonna be worse than the situation i had with Mars. That was 6 months of being a close friend with her....this one..if it's gonna be years with Jaja, My goodness...if i were to fall...think i'll turn Gay.

* Prays *
Dear Allah, pls bless this friendship and the bond between me and jaja. I pray that i won't ever have to lose her! Ever! and Allah...i hope that i can repay the kindness jaja have showed me and also hope that i can be there for her whenever she needs someone. Amin~!

Anyway... i need to do a speech but ya know...hahha...it's not going anywhere. By the looks of it, i don't think i'll be able to make it.

NO NO!! Cannot CaNNOT!! i can't be like this! I must be strong and believe in myself. Jaja Believes in me...and i'm NOT..ok..wait... NEVER!! (a more challenging task) gonna let her down!! If she believes in me...i should also believe in myself.
For Jaja and for my future...i will strive! well then..take care ppl! i've got HWK to do!! *bows* have a nice day ya all!

i am superman ;
8/23/2004 12:21:00 PM